Small Amnesias

Doing the snowflake challenge would have been a good way to meet people...

But I've been stressed out lately. X(

Also, my autobiographical memory is... extremely poor. Apparently some of the things I don't remember at all but my family do are... evidence that my kindergarten teachers abused me, so my memory being fucking shot might be a trauma thing? Or it might just be me being kind of dumb. I can remember factoids, the kind of information you read in books, but not very much about my own life, even relatively recent things.

That makes it really hard to recount my fandom history! Was the first thing I sought out "fandom" content for The Lion King, or Harry Potter? When did I get into Ace Attorney, and how? Was my first anime Princess Tutu, or Yugioh (1998)¹? How was I interacting with the communities? It's part of why I fret a lot about archival of fandom history and information about canons... my memory isn't good enough to be reliable as a source on what the internet was like back in the 00's, even though I want to be able to compare and contrast then and now.

It can be very frustrating. People always tell me that if I can't remember something, it must not be important to me, but even things I desperately want to remember, like dead family members or old friendships, slip through my fingers... but god if I can't tell you some random minutae about Zoo Tycoon or animal biology I learned prior to puberty, huh.

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1: I'm a freak who went straight from LittleKuriboh's "Yu-Gi-Oh! The Abridged Series" to watching Season Zero because the card games looked boring, the shadow games looked cool, and I thought Duel Monster's art style was uglier than Season Zero's. Sorry everyone.